It Is You Again

It’s hard to ignore feelings.
I care for you.
So I try to hide them away.
Hiding brings pain.
No one can see but me.
A lonely beast of humility you’ve rendered me
Hold me please so reverently
Maybe it’s not meant to be
It’s meant to be hard on me
You don’t know the half of it
I hear you.
See you.
Read your words.
The thought of you.
Dreams of you.
I sound absurd but it’s true
All of that sickens me
I want them so badly
I expect too much too quickly