Fragments

This could be
The end of me
I can see
Plainly
That maybe
I hate me.
I’m asking a free-be
Please free me
Life owes me
Who knows me?
Just show me
The way.
I can’t play
These games.
It’s insane
Only pain.
No fame
No fortune
My portion
Is meager.
I’m eager
I’d leave her
I need her.
Wake up!
Who am I?
I can’t lie
I’m loosing
But cruising
My bruising
Not healing
I’m feeling
Alone.
Nobody home
Around me
Surrounding
This impulse
Confounding
Astounding
Amounting
I’m counting
The days
Nothing satisfies
Nothing subsides
Nothing. No one.
These suffering eyes
I cry
Inside
Peace hides
My pride
Is proven
You left me in ruins.